i can't take it any longer....i had too many things to worry on my mind. i had too many things to do. i even feel like telling him, "maybe we should not get married".
i am not blaming him but then i just dislike it when he keeps saying that he has lots to do, lots to worry. but the issue is, he does not have lots to do, lots to worry actually. for what i know, he just have his work to do, the '$$$' issue to worry about.
all these period, i have been the one that is running around, looking for our quilt cover, our wedding favours...etc. i have been the one constantly reminding him to put things into action and stuffs. i'm not saying i'm being the best but then what i wanna say is that shouldn't we be working things together and discussing things together? all i heard from him is, "this not needed", "that would be being extra", "this can wait", "waste of money". i am getting tired of hearing all these comments.
i know that without $$$, we would not be able to hold a wedding. i appreciate him for always paying every single thing and making sure i would not get stressed over money issue but has he appreciate that i have been doing the rest of the stuffs also?
we left barely 4 months and pls note that we have lots to do still. we need wardrobe, we need to buy those necessities for the wedding, we have not engaged professional photographer and video-man. we need wedding favours for our honoured guests. most importantly, we have not even get the preliminary guest lists out yet.
i would really want to make my wedding (which will only happen once) as perfect as can be.
coincidently, coming this period, i would be darn busy with my work also. this would be a super duper busy period that i cannot allow myself to fall sick. i gotta keep myself agile every single day, not just for work but for the wedding preperations that i might need to do after my work.
and just when i thought that is about all, i received a rather bad news. it is rather personal thus i would not elaborate on that. i do not know what would happen to my family after that if whole thing erupt.
i am not feeling well physically also.
can anyone pls help me? i am already up to my neck now....
how? how? how?
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I can't take it any longer @ 7/04/2006 01:40:00 PM 
